Life is like that, a lot... pieces that don't make sense. And deep, scary feelings that make you uncertain of there source or reliability or legitimacy. Feelings that breed secrets. We hide inside ourselves, mixing things, like the galaxy mixes stars, in our middles that can sit there and sprout, take root, and keep on growing until we have enough clarity to either weed or prune them.
It's nice to not be sad. To just be still, and accept what you can't change, even though it can be one of the most frustrating things known to man. Can it be possible to be in pain, yet be healing, at the same time?
I turned 22 last week. I don't feel any different. Maybe I should. Maybe I will in six months because maybe I'll be somewhere I never thought I could be. And again, I'll find myself in gaping amazement at the sly, subtle ways God pieces together the broken and the senseless pieces.
A cage may be golden, but it is still a cage. Trust me, and always remember that.
Anna, I don't understand everything you're going through, but I definitely know what it's like to be intimidated by an uncertain future. I know what it's like to be in pain and yet to be healing at the same time. God often heals us through pain. Isn't that strange? His mercies are mysterious but we can trust that they're good.
ReplyDeleteIn the end, we simply have to be still and not worry. One thing God has been impressing on my heart the last couple of years is that contentment isn't about getting everything you're striving for. It's not about accomplishing all your dreams and aspirations. It's about trusting and resting in the goodness of God, in spite of the pain and the uncertainty.
God bless!
a vapor in the wind
the first and second paragraphs literally hit me in the face with their honesty and how i relate. We're cut from the same cloth, you and I.
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